What a happening weekend... Friday go dbl O celebrate Michael's 18th Birthday, Saturday meet up with Clique'rz to celebrate my best bro, Victor's 21st birthday! Went to Bugis area to have steamboat... after tt went to a very nice place recommend by Victor, den around 3plus meet up with Gilbert to have supper. Haha. Really happening ar, I 6plus this morning jus reach home..

Quite alot of things happen ytd ba... although my Clique'rz nvr say it out, I know some of us a having relationship problem... including myself. But I know i'm not e most sad of them all, I'm only crazy over a girl who don even have feelings for me at all, I'm jus missing her alot... But my Clique'rz.... I'll be there if u guys need a shoulder to lean on or a listening ear. I may not be of much help in solving ur probs, but I promise to be there for u guys!

I'm still missing u...

P.S. Happy 21th Birthday Victor!!







Its 4plus in e morning n I jus reach home! Went dbl O to celebrate Mike's birthdday... its a guys night! 1st time went clubbing with all guys! Its was fun! I'm half drunk, I had a great time, I'm happy, and I'm missing her damn lots!

Kimmy... I know alot of guys r chasing after u now... N i know I wont even be in ur queue... I jus wan u to be happy.... seeing u happy is enough for me... a smile from u is enough to brighten up my day... a word from u is enough to make my heart stop pumping for a minute... I'm really crazy over u... I know u don feel comfortable with me keep sms-ing u... I know I don even stand a chance...But I cant lie to myself tt I don have any feelings for u... I know its silly for me to fall for someone who I only chat with in msn n sms, she don even know any shit abt me! Its jus e charm from u tt attracts me...

Haha... I'm crazy... crazy over u.. I really miss u...

P.S. Happy 18th Birthday Michael!!







Went to Hougang Mall with CK jus now.. slack down there.. talk cock... arcade... pool.. lame stuff... He told me something I find it quite shocking. No Kissing in public place, Fine $500. I initially tot its for NS guys onli, den he say its for civilian! OMG! Din know Singapore got this kinda law, jus implement not long ago. lol. Lucky I don have a gf.. if not... Hahaha!

I know u're ignoring me, I've mus have scare u somehow... Really very sorry...







古巨基 - 情歌王 Part 1





古巨基 - 情歌王 Part 2






My fav. song.. this MV is very touching.. Cried while watching... especially e ending part...

P.S. I love e girl in this MV! She's so pretty! How I wish she'll be mine.. lol! DREAM ON!







Jus wake up not long ago... Feels so bored man. Really got nothing to do during e holidays. Haiz... ytd night a private number called me, when I answer e call I tot it was her! It really sounds alot like her, maybe is I think of her too much le ba... den giving me e false impression tt its her voice. Its Jareal who called me, haha.. she sounds kinda different over e phone ytd. My heart really skip a beat when I tot its her initially. But anyways, had quite a good chat with Jareal. 1st time chat with her for like 3hours over e phone.. lol.. Its gonna be a boring day......

P.S. Happy Birthday Ning!!

I know u're not working today, I've ask u out for movie on today afew days back, but u say see 1st. I guess u don rmb le ba, its alright. Guess u'll be out with ur frens too... enjoy ur day yup. I miss you...







Jus now was quite a happy post, but now its gonna be quite sad. Jus now before I go shower, my dad ask me take a look at my grandma's toe. I really got shocked lor, it was like totally rotten, black, I can even see her flesh! Her big toe nail was all gone! Its really sad for me to see her lydat... Haiz... Y is this happening to her? I rather all this happen on me instead... it really breaks my heart to see her like this... I admit I'm weak when it comes to emotional stuff.. be it regarding my grandma or her... Really can't bear to see my grandma's foot being amputated if her condition become worse... Can't stop thinking tt she's ignoring me after wat I've said to her... I know I'm not good with words, but my feelings are true.. Feelings don lie...

Its holiday! But I'm not happy at all...







Holiday lo!!! YES!! Finally finish all my papers today! So happy! Hahaha!! But I feels abit sad leh... made quite alot of mistake in today D-Fund2 paper... Haiz... n somemore this is e last time A751 are together as a class, next year we will all split class le. Saded. I'll miss u guys! Time really flies ar, it jus seems like ytd I jus enter TP. 1 year jiu lydat pass le, had lots of fun moments with my classmates. LOVE u guys lots!! Will take pics of with them n post soon. Haha.

Went City Hall with Sham n Shaun after exam, initially is to accompany Sham buy something n accompany Shaun take his contact lens. We went to collect Shaun's lens 1st, as it was his 1st time wearing contact lens, e person teach him how to put it on. It really took ages for him to learn lor, in e end oso nvr success. lol. It take time n courage Shaun! Jia you! Haha. After tt went to Marina Square Pizza Hut to have our dinner, e 3 of us ordered e 4-5 pax meal lor. 2 regular pizza, 4 drinks, 4 soups n 6 pcs drumlets. IT WAS FILLING! Sham don wan drink n soup den pass to me, feels fat now man. But its ok la, celebrate end of exams ma. Some more I like e feeling of dinning with friends, chit chat.. "sight seeing".. haha. It was fun! Really had a wonderful time with my poly frens. Haha.

I hope wat happen ytd will not make u ignore me ba... I jus wanna let u know tt i have feelings for u... I don wanna live in regret if I didn't tell u... I wont regret telling u I like u, but I'll regret if u ignore me! Coz I know its not possible for u to fall for me, at least I'm still able to chat with u...







2nd paper down! Hope can score A for my E-device ar, made quite a few careless mistakes today... Sianz... Last paper le!! Jia You! Jus come back from plaza Mac, study abit for later paper... I used to be confident in D-Fund 2 but now ar.. totally forget everything.. Haha..

Anyways... had a crazy time jus now.. I actually told her i like her! But guess wat? She ask me not to like her.. ZzZzZz... Haha.. but i wont give up so easily! I know time will prove everything.. ^^

I hope tt u wont avoid me after this happen. Haha. Sorry if it shocked u.. but i really like u..







Yes! Finally E-Maths2 paper down! Left with E-device & D-fund2. Tmw's E-device paper at 2.30pm, going sch in e morning n study.. Hope I can score A for this. As for my maths.. haiz.. gone case.. don wanna talk abt it... If can pass I happy enough le. Alright! Gonna Jia You again!

I know nobody can ever replace him in ur heart... but if u happen to read this blog, jus wanna let u know tt someone out there is waiting for his turn to be a part of ur life.. to be part of u... to give u happiness... hope... n all e love tt he could shower u with... maybe this day will not arrive for him... but he'll still love n care for u...







Around 7 n a half more hours to my 1st paper. Going sch study at 2pm later, hope can chiong last min ar. Good luck to myself! 3 papers to go!

I miss u... Hope u're not ignorring me after e phone call... Sorry if i did anything wrong.. Jus wanna u be happy...







Hmmm... Saturday was a busy day. Work at SPH from 9am-5pm, it was fun. Haha. N we got new SPH t-shirts! It was nicer den e previous one we had! After work went Wayne's hse for mahjong session with Jareal, Wayne n Shao Qi. Guess what? Only i lose! Half of my pay on sat gone! Haiz. I should be studying for my E-Maths2 exam at home de lor, go play mj still lose so much. Sianz.

My exams finally starting tmw... N i dono a single shit abt every subjects! Been playing too much this sem. , nvr really focus on my studies. 3 papers n its holiday! Wish myself good luck! Jia you!

Nvr sms with her for like 2days? Called her on Fri, after tt nvr sms much. Sat I was busy, so nvr sms her. Today woke up at 5pm den start studying till now, sms with her awhile but guess she's busy to reply my sms. Hope she's back home safety and sleeping le ba, coz she's not online... Sad. Tot can have a good luck charm from her. Haha. But well, guess I'll have to depend on myself to pass my papers now. Guess u're slping le ba, Nitez. Slp well. I miss u... :(

Haiz.. feels so down these days... sometimes, i jus suddenly feels like crying. But ofcoz i hold my tears, maybe crying out will make me feels better ba. I really need a hug, and a shoulder to cry on.







Guess what? I saw Jade Seah this morning on bus 88 with her bf!! OMG! Tell u, she's one gorgeous lady! Although she's wearing cap n sunglass, I can still recognise her. But din expect her to be so tall! Think she's taller den me ar, saded... Her bf not very handsome leh, skinny.. tall.. not bad-looking only. After getting off e bus they hold hands n walk, den Jade catching another bus, so kiss him goodbye. I was like.. "Y not me?" hahaha. Dream on man! Dream on! lol

Today did 3 E-device pass yr paper, still can managed. But need to brush up on remembering my formula, I'll study my maths on Sunday n Monday! If not sure die liao, lucky maths paper late at night. Still can study in e morning n afternoon. While studying, talk alot of cock with Sham. I wanted to tell her something den Sham ask me sms her, saying I got something to tell her when she's free coz she's working. Den when she's free, Sham call her n pass e phone to me! Tell u, I was so nervous! My hands were cold, heart beating damn fast! Den I talk to her like an idiot! I dono wat I was saying also. Sorry if I sound stupid this afternoon. Haha.

It was good to hear her voice, get me motivated to finish 3 papers ar. lol. I still feels shy when i think abt e phone call. Haha. Thanks bro for "sabo-ing" me ar. Thanks! Hope will chat on e phone with her more. Hehe.







Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
'Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find







YES!! Finally I'm home, showered, smell nice, feels clean! Really mus "Thank" Ronna for "giving" me e "chance" to work at Bugis today ar. "Thanks" Ronna! I was on my way to JP from SGH after visiting my ah ma, plan to go JP early to eat auntie's cooking coz i miss her cooking. Halfway through my journey, Ronna call and ask me go Bugis work coz they short of staff today. And she said "She oso not working today, u can go over Bugis work." In my heart, i was like wtf?! How e hell she knows?

She say they need a BOH staff den i told her i only wan work FOH coz i very long nvr work BOH n kinda forget things in e kitchen. She say I go over will work FOH but u know wat? When I reach Bugis, e manager tell me they need me to work BOH! "Thanks" again Ronna! I din bring any things for BOH, my jeans, my safety boots all those things. Left with no choice, I wear e smelly BOH t-shirt, wear other ppl's smelly safety boots, wear an dirty apron n start work.

Although its jus a 4hrs work, but its killing me! I totally dono e ppl there, no one to really talk to, and its not busy at all! This 4hrs really move like tortoise, starring at e clock hoping 10pm will faster come so I can go home. Haiz. What a day for me ar, i tot finally can get a chance to work with Mark n Nydiah after so long, but all "thanks" to Ronna.

I miss e old JP, I miss working with Jinbo, Mark, both Nydiah, Yenqi, Sharon, Xue Hong, and alot more...

Cant slp again today, gonna meet Sham go sch study later.. meeting him at 8am. So gonna wake up at 730am... I'm tired, tired of everything...

How's ur day today? Hope its fine for u. Did u eat all ur meals? Hope u did. Better slp early, don always so late den slp. I miss u, do u? So much i wanted to say... but... Haiz.. Anyways, goodnight, sweet dreams, slp tight. Don forget to cover ur blanket. I miss u, badly... : (







Talking to her on msn now. Had quite a good chat with her today. Hehe. But I realise something... I'm not e only one chasing her... I know afew of my buddies r chasing her too.. And I know i don stand a single chance... but its alright, like what i say.. "被爱比爱人幸福 所以我要让你幸福" 因为... 我爱你!

I miss you, I really do. I'll be happy even if there's a tiny mini bit of u missing me...







Hey! Went fishing with Sham at Punggol End today.. haha.. actually we r suppose to be studying at sch's library.. but e fishes r calling us la! Haha. No big catch for me today, AGAIN! I always caught small fishes lor.. Sham always get weird catch like crab la.. sea brush.. today he caught octopus! Lol... below r e pics of our catch!

Look at e eyes.. Fierce right? Octopus:"If u dare eat me, I'll KILL you!"

Caught by Sham, AGAIN! Argh! Wonder when I'll get big catch too... :(

OMG! Stop showing off ur crab man! U're a CRAP guy. hahaha. :p

Haiz... cant slp again... this is killing me man... meeting Sham later at 830, going sch study. But look at me now, blogging in e middle of e night...

Chatting with her on msn now, but she seems a little busy to chat with me..

Should i go drink again? haha.. maybe i'll drink more today...

p.s. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZL!!!


I miss u...







Just finish showering after jogging.. haha.. feels great! sms her jus now.. but she nvr reply me, guess she's busy or doing something ba..

是我想太多.. She not my gf, and I'm jus a nobody to her. She don need to reply my sms every time right?

不要再想太多了!

awaiting for your reply...







What a boring today.. been studying my maths since afternoon.. but i gt take a short nap in between. haha. I feel tt i din study much leh.. anyways.. tmw will be going to sch study with sham. Better make tmw useful! Wont wanna waste anymore time (I hope), haha.

Should i go for a jog?







Haiz... now so late le i still awake... Just now study till headache den wanna try to get some slp.. but once i lie on my bed i cant fall aslp.. keep tossing n turning around... Drinking some Baileys now.. hoping it will get me "drunk" so I'm able to slp better.. haha.. silly me..

She sms me jus now!! haha.. ask me if tmw I'm working anot.. but sadly... my schedule sucks! only get to work on thurs 6pm-1030pm. tot she'll be working on thurs but... NO! Ronna change her thurs schedule to fri... Nydiah told me they need ppl to work on fri.. but guess i wont be working, coz i really need time to study all my subjects! Time is running out for me!

As for me n her, i can only say we 有缘无份.. she's working on tue but I'm not. I'm working on thurs but she's not. We 有缘 to know each other, but 无份 to work with each other. But, i wont give up on her, coz 缘份是掌握在自己的手里! Haha

Since i cant stop thinking of her, i might as well talk abt her. Know her a few months back, heard abt her from jinbo before she even started working (coz when got new girls come work, jinbo will inform me. LOL). After she start working, i din get e chance to work with her, but i did see her afew times. E 1st impression i get from her is "OMG! This girl is so cute n pretty! Wonder if I'll ever get e chance to know her..", but i know i wont have e chance to really know her coz i know alot of ppl at fishy is chasing her, I'm not better den any of them coz I'm not eye catching enough.. not handsome.. I feel kinda inferior compare to them. So i din take e initiative to talk to her. Still rmb e 1st time she talk to me, was in fishy office. I forget wat i was doing inside, n she walked in getting smt i think, den she ask me "You're not working le ar?". haha. Was so shocked when she talked to me. N i told her I'm studying now n my sch end quite late so cant work. Tell u, my heart was beating damn fast tt time!

Haha, but den, (i tot) she and my best buddy got something going on. so din take any action. lol. Recently den i found out tt my buddy is chasing another girl at his workplace. So (i tot) my initial mind set is wrong! haha. Den one day while starring at my laptop's screen, she come online. N i dono where e hell i get e courage from, i talk to her. Thing turn out fine, (n i managed to get her phone number! lol.) So had been sms-ing with her since tt day, n i din expect myself to fall for her tt deeply. I dono her at all to begin with, dono whats wrong with me too. haha.

Den later get to read her blog, found out tt she actually had feelings for my buddy.. in my heart, i know i cant replace my buddy or her ex. n there's no more room in her heart for me to stay too.

Initially i tot I'm very happy with my single life.. but, when loves come it jus happen rite? I cant deny the fact tt i've fallen for her. Knowing things might not have a happy ending for me, I'll still tell her tt I love her someday, coz i don wanna regret not telling her. No wonder ppl say, Love is blind. haha.

Wonder how many shots of Baileys have i drink... its still not enough to get me drunk or make me sleepy... I'm still awake...

Counting down to my exams: 7 days







ARGH!!! Been studying for e past 2hr plus but i cant get anything into my head!! This is killing me! Someone save me!! Tmw nt working.. so can have one more day to study. Better make tmw useful. Don wanna fail any of my subjects. E-device, E-maths2, D-fund2, so many things to study yet so little time... I need my concentration back!!

Plz STOP thinking abt her and START STUDYING!!!!

OMG! This is totally cool yet creepy! Use ur Headphone to listen to this video to feel e effect... close ur eyes.. and enjoy e beauty of technology.

p.s. i got this from her. ^^

Had been rotting at hm for e whole day... nothing to do at all... lazy to study too... haiz... drinking my bubble tea now, listening to e songs on her blog, Always Be My Baby - David Cook. A really nice song, wonder where is she now. To be frank, i don know her well at all. I don know wat she likes and dislike yet I'm crazy over her. Haha. But this is wat makes 暗恋 interesting rite? Slowly find out more abt e person u love, falling deeper n deeper each day. But tt doesn't mean if i find out all abt her I'll get sick n tired of her.. haha.. coz u'll nvr completely understands a person inside out. Alright, gonna finish my bubble tea, go shower and STUDY (hopefully)!! haha







Oh man! Its a draw! But its alright, coz Man U played well. Haha.

Talking to her on msn now. Today is e 2nd time she start a conversion with me 1st. Hehe. Haven check my schedule for this week yet. Hope will have e chance to work with her.. hehe.. leave all these to fate ba. lol.

Exams r coming next week!! Oh man... i haven start any revision yet... my grades sure will drop this sem. Haiz. Must get myself back to e study mood! No more emo-ing for this whole week!

Saw this quiz on her blog, so decided to try it out. haha. Din expect will score so 'well'. lol. But don think this quiz is 100% accurate ba. Coz no one wans me.. sob sob.. haha.

Manchester United VS Newcastle United, half time now, currently 1 - 1. Man U will win!!

Just finish watching e Beijing Olympic, Table Tennis Gold Medal - Women, Singapore VS China. Its kinda disappointing man. SG lost 3 straight games, giving China e Gold Medal in both hands. SG players made alots of mistakes today, kinda sad... but anyways, congrats SG on having e Silver Medal! Congrats!

There will be a Manchester United match later!! VS Newcastle United. GO Man U!







Hi all! Finally i started blogging. Haha. This blog would not have been successful without the help of my brother! Credits to him!

Okies, I oso dono what i should post in this blog. Now is my study week and i haven start my revision yet!! Hope I wont do badly in this sem. Recently had lots of ups n downs in my life (mostly is due to my own emo-ness. lol).

Alright, let's talk abt ytd 1st. Went JP in e evening with Jareal to walk walk around but e truth is i wanna see her. I only take a few glance at her n i guess she din see me, but most of e fishy ppl saw me. haha. But being able to see her I'm happy enough le. haiz... I miss her...

Back to e main topic, haha. Initially wanted to watch movie with Jareal at JP, but all e time slots very late so nvr watch. In e end we go arcade play e basketball machine, shop around. Its always fun to shop with girls, especially go Toys 'R' Us or Kiddy Palace! haha. We played at least 10 rounds of basketball ytd, lucky i still gt credits on my Tapz card, den we use e tickets we got from playing to xchange drinks n pencil. Den at Toys 'R' Us Jareal brought a water bottle n a Sponge Bob Square Pants stuff. The Wall-E toy was very cute la, its a remote controlled Wall-E comes in different sizes, e biggest cost nearly $100!! but when u press it, it will give e sound "Wallll-EEEE~" haha.. its cute. Next stop, Kiddy Palace, she brought a Eeyore soft toy and hug it all e way. lol. Seeing my frens happy makes me happy too~

After tt went my hse to play Mahjong with Jareal, Victor & Shao Qi. Initially tot wanna 'eat' Qi's money, but he one leg win us 3 lor!! saded. Zi mo man tai at least 4 times! Ppl used to say "傻人有傻福" so he's a 傻人. haha. We started playing at 12am but after we finish Dong Fong chris they all drive us go supper at Punggol. 1st time 3 cars drive out together. haha. Chris, ZL, Bird. haha. After supper went to Punggol End coz ZL nvr been before. Really had fun with my frens. hehe.

Yuan Jie
29-02-1988
杰

- Lyrics -

- 勇气 -

终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定

我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里你的真心

如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急更害怕错过你

Wish List

Nintendo Wii Thx Clique'rz!
Sony PlayStation III
Digital Camera
New Clothes!
Driving License I've pass!
CitiBank Clear Card
Pass My Year 2 Sem. 1!
iPod Touch
Adidas Watch
Model: HSD 801 Originals 80's watch
Colour: Green
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Everlast Watch (2nd choice)
Model: L-115 DG
Colour: Black
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Dreams

Become a singer!
Be Happy EVERYDAY!
Become handsome! haha
Become rich! coz i'm broke! :(
Rear a Siberian Husky!
Learn Piano
Learn Hip Pop Dance
To be with u forever

Tainted Voices

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